Monday, March 30, 2009


Recap of the week in 10 words: Fun birthday, film sets, amazing friends, Jersey please, cough.

Tonight: I received word from home that things have not changed for the better. No one seems to be growing spiritually, as a group of friends, or technically. At best, the group is in an "okay" state. I know this is very vague, but I don't want to say things here that I shouldn't. However, since last year was a phenomenal time of spiritual growth, friendship, worship, and advancement in fun/organization, it's hard to see conditions are declining. It's times like these I wish I could go home, give some hugs, whip some people into shape, and get back to school. However, six hour drives and busy weeks means that heading to Jersey is not an option.

At least I'll be heading home in less than two weeks.

Romans: Claire and I are studying Romans together. Here's a verse that really stuck out to me.

"Although [men]  know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do those very things but also approve of those who practice them" 
-Romans 1:32

What especially stands out is the "...also approve of those who practice them" line. I know that I'm letting people slide with things like gossiping, or cursing, etc. By letting them slide, it's like I'm sinning as well. Crazy concept.

On a brighter note: Totally looking forward to Spirit Week! Free t-shirts in the Library Plaza on Tuesday from 8 a.m. -3 p.m. They are soooooo tight. Fo sho.

Picture of the Day: Miss you, boy.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

It'll be a late night...

I should be doing math homework, or sleeping. However, this week has been phenomenal!

Let me list why:
1. Cookies shoot was probably my favorite shoot thus far. We had such a tight crew. Totally digging it. Loved the experience!
2. Workouts with Bekah, Chelsea, Isaiah, and Jordan are a blast :].
3. I have amazing friends who lifted a butt load of stress by planning a party for me.
4. The youth of CCC are awesome and I am loving the opportunity to act as a leader!
5. I have a great friend whose name starts with Cl and ends with airisse. We like coffee.
6. There is a new elephant in the family. His name is Dragon.
7. I can't emphasize how amazing the people in my life are. At home and at school; you guys are great!
8. Scoops!
9. God is always good, James 5:16 ["The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective"]
10. Filmmaking is my PASSIIOOONNN.

This week has been great mainly because of people. People who are passionate, loving, caring, considerate,  and who give good hugs :]. I am incredibly blessed and incredibly thankful.

Picture of the Day: Classy Ladies

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Staying Centered.

You’re the center of the universe
Everything was made in You Jesus
Breath of every living thing
Everyone was made for You

You hold everything together
You hold everything together

Christ be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives

We lift our eyes to heaven
We wrap our lives around your life
We lift our eyes to heaven, to You
-Center, Charlie Hall

God has been really great. I've been incredibly busy, but I have been really enjoying getting into the word.
I'm starting up James.
Recently, I've read a lot about "taming the tongue" and how slanderous talk "corrupts the whole body". Yikes!
I'm thinking about going on a gossip fast. 
Isn't it sad that I need to fast from gossip?
Regardless, I think it would be a really rewarding time to analyze my behavior and see how I can act in my faith.
That's another thing, faith without deeds is dead.
James has taught me to stop claiming a faith that isn't acted out. I'm working on that too :].
This week is crazy. 
Tomorrow is the first day of shooting for "Cookies". I'm praying that all goes well.
I'm 2nd AD, which is really exciting. I have an actual job! Haha.
Also, my birthday is soon and I don't know what to do for it yet. The beach would be great. But it might be too cold.
I wish it were cold enough to go snowboarding.
That would be great.
Picture of the Day: Amoeba Pancake

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I should be working on my speech...

However, I am slightly troubled and need to get my thoughts down.

My birthday is on Wednesday. I really wish it weren't on Wednesday. I'm too busy. I don't feel like planning anything because I know that I will be so behind on work. Plus Wednesdays are always so busy, that by the time I get home I'm just going to want to sleep. And I get gypped, too. Friday is the talent show/Isaiah's birthday, then Saturday and Sunday I'm shooting all weekend. So I couldn't even push a celebration off till the weekend.

And it seems like evvvvverrrryyyyonnneee has a birthday party here. What if I don't want to do anything for my birthday? I feel like not many people would be excited to attend my birthday party. I know that seems extremely low self-esteemish, but its not. 

Birthday dream would be to just spend the day with Meredith, Katie, Emily, Charlie, and Cat. And maybe mom and dad. I want the people that I care about the most [and vice versa] to be there because they want to be, not because its the right thing to do. That's the main reason I am hesitant to have a party. There are a lot of people who I think would show up only because they would feel bad if they didn't. If that is the case, then they probably aren't a real friend.

Wooww this post was mad emo. I think I'm entitled to have one of those once in a while :]

But I promise I'm not cutting myself or listening to Panic At the Disco...

Picture of the Day: Jersey Folks

Monday, March 16, 2009

This is a random post.

"If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
Cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
An avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming"

-C.S. Lewis Song, Brooke Fraser

Just loving this song lately.

Today was a prayer-filled day. Usually I talk to God through worship, but today he said prayer. That's all I could do. I had trouble staying in worship this morning and all I could do was pray. Which was cool, it was different. :]

Also. It's March. A quick review:
-I got a good friend, but I think that is all he will be. And that is fine! :]
-Charlie told me that "Jesus is a good boyfriend". I'm cool with dating Him for now. Haha.
-I've had some whacked out dreams!
-I am totally content with being single.
-I love my major.
-There are some awesome girls at this school.
-My siblings are growing up so fast. I like my sister's haircut and might have to copy her haha.
-I think I've almost officially broken out of my shell. Holler.
-God is basically really awesome.
-I miss cooking and home-cooked meals.

Picture of the Day: My Major is Better Than Yours!

Sunday, March 8, 2009


The past few days have been SOOO relaxing.

Friday was fun. Liv, Jordan, Isaiah, and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings. I hadn't been there before so it was a tasty new experience. Later that day I saw Corinne play lacrosse against RIT. Her team lost, but it was nice to see her down in my neck of the woods. :]

Friday was beautiful. Claire and I walked about 4 miles on the boardwalk, ate breakfast, then did devos on the beach.  I went on a bit of a shopping spree and bought some new jeans [finally] and a few other things I needed. Oh, and I rearranged my bedroom! I looveee the new set up.

Yesterday was a really happy day. Just hanging randomly with friends at diners, malls, and apartments. Frisbee was in the morning. We crimmaged because no one was here over spring break. When I got back, Bekah and I took over pancake day and made some meann pancakes. We don't need no boys to have a pancake day! I also enjoyed Garden State, attempting to spray water at Bekah's car, and buying a new sweater.

And now here I am, today. Church was nice; I was up playing worship for over an hour as God moved in the service. Jared said some really nice words that made me so thankful for our friendship! It was real cool :].

Lately I've had this desire to know God's word, gain wisdom, and have discernment as to how to speak the word to others. Proverbs has been great...

"My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body. Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right of the left; keep your foot from evil."
Proverbs 4:20-27

Picture of the Day: My Family is Great

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


i'm back at school. liberty was nice. it was great to spend time with a good friend and make some fond memories. from water and shaving cream fights to cooking our famous chicken fajitas, emily and i make a great team. i am so thankful to have her.

something that i think i might work on tonight, or at least in the near future is creating a list of qualities i want to see in a husband with biblical references to back these ideas up. 

after observing several christ-centered relationships, i know that i can not settle for anything less than the standards i have set based on what god says. i've also realized that i must recognize the ways that i express love and compassion so that i may find someone who is compatible with the same ideas. i want a healthy, strong, godly relationship that is blessed by god in his timing. god is good in every season, in singleness and in companionship. right now i am single and god is still good! i am totally content with that :].

anywho. i'm going to take some time to chill. be blessed :].

also, emillyyyy, e-mail me a link to your blog plleeasee. lovee youu.

pictures of the day: cinnalicious

^ definitely typical
^ real friends get into shaving cream wars...
^ this picture is horribly unattractive. but i still love it!

^ yes, the fajitas!!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


Realization #1: I am not myself at college. Being here with Emily has shown me that I need to be myself, no matter what anyone thinks. It's tough because it's not necessarily a "I might get made fun of thing", but I have a personality that's compatible with certain people. I am about 3975 times more goofy, laid back, and real at home than I am at school. I miss the simplicity of my personality. I need to brinnngg iittt backkk, baby.

Realization #2: Regent has not been equipping me spiritually. I've been at Liberty for less that 24 hours and I can see the spirit of the school and have especially seen how much Emily has grown. Honestly, I have not been growing enough at Regent. I'm not pushed to grow in my faith. Everything is so lax that we seem to forget that we are at a Christian university; the only time we seem to remember is when we go to church on Sunday.  RU Global is great, but we need another plan to improve the spiritual growth of students.

Realization #3: Gossiping needs to stop. I was doing so well until, haha, I came to Regent. That's all everyone seems to do is talk about each other. I'm totally sick of it. I read this in Proverbs this morning...

"Without wood a fire goes out; without gossip a quarrel dies down" [Proverbs 26: 20]

I'm need to stand up for myself and say no, I won't gossip anymore. 

Well. On a brighter note :], yesterday was SO MUCH FUN. After playing in the snow, Em and I came inside and cooked dinner. We got into a fight with the water hose and both wound up really wet. Then later Emily pushed my cup into my face so I spilled more water on me, so I took sips of her water and spat it on her :]. Ohhh the joys of friendship!

Today is going to be beautiful! I'm meeting Kristi for lunch and then probably playing in the snow with Em and her boyfriend Stevie. Visiting Emily was a great idea. 

Be blessed.

Picture of the Day: W1-L1

Monday, March 2, 2009

Snow way, dude... ahahaha.

Right now I am visiting with my best friend Emily at Liberty and there is SO MUCH FREAKING SNOW. I miss the snow.

Everytime I see it I get really antsy because I just want to strap into a board in ride. If I could have, I would have rode my snowboard all the way to Liberty. The trees were so beautiful. The snow made them look gorgeous. I absolutely loveeeddddd it. Snow :].

I am so stoked to be with Emily right now!! We went out in the snow and rolled down the hills. Oh my gosh. It was hilariousss! We are going to have SO much fun this week.

Also. SESSION C IS OVVEERRRR!! Worrrddd up.

Peace players...

Picture of the Day: D and D!